So before I begin this is the third instalment of my posts about my experience and journey with my anxiety and depression you can check the other two out here which will give you the past info so we are all on the same track… Anxiety & Depression… & Anxiety & Depression 2… )
My life has been a bit of a whirlwind ever since ending and leaving university and London and even though I am kinda confused about what to do with my life (As you guys have probs guessed from other previous posts). I’m so glad and kind of proud to report that my mental health has been for most of the time really really good! If you have read my previos posts you will know that I have been taking medication for my depression and anxiety and found it helped me get a hold of my head and feelings. In the last post I think I mentioned that I had to take the medication less often which was amazing news. But after returning to university after the Easter holidays I was sat in my room and decided that I felt like I no longer needed the help of medication. I no longer felt that I classed myself as “being depressed”. I realised that I was no longer that person (You are suppose to consult with a doctor when coming off medication, but when you know you know right??).
On the whole I had been feeling a lot more positive and happier in myself and I felt like I had a much brighter outlook on everything even though I was freaking out about life after university. It does slightly worry me that I no longer have that safety blanket of the mediation and that I could fall down the slippery again but lets not dwell on that!!
Even though I am still doing well off the medication I did have a bit of a fall back last week when the black fog of anxiety crept back in and I freaked out I doubted everything I was doing I felt paranoid and anxious about so many elements of life. But it was only a day and not a week which is such an improvement! I am just glad that I know now when my head is taking over and I just need to breathe and be calm about things and not worry what people think!
Thanks for reading.
Little Mayfly x