I haven’t done this in a while but a thing happened and I had to write about it to get it off my chest… Whilst at Unversity I had quite a few panic attacks and since coming home I have had like next to none! It had been ages since my last one that was untill this Sunday. I’m not quite sure why or how it happened? That’s the odd thing about panic attacks I am never quite sure what factor sets them off exactly? They just come over you like a huge huge wave! And you can’t control it!
I was feeling good Sunday morning I got up showered did my hair and makeup nice whilst I had the chance and off was sat chatting to my family before I went off shopping. So a pretty standard Sunday morning. I was almost in a too good of a mood I was really happy. Off I went shopping and picked up an armful of clothes. As soon as I walked into the changing room I felt off. I put it down to it being hot. I mean who isn’t dead in this heat?? England what’s up! I tried on a few of the items I had and then just became overcome with heat. And then the panic hit. I just had to get out. To cut a long story short I then panicked in the car for like 10 mins with a guy staring at me until I could drive to somewhere quieter to calm down some more. Then I drove home and slept for like an hour!
I think overall I am more annoyed at the fact it happened. As it hasn’t happened in ages. But I don’t want it to happen again, I feel as if I am now waiting for it! I don’t know! It’s frustrating. It’s kind of knocked me down a bit. I feel like a breeze could knock me over or something. I just feel out of sorts like I’ve been knocked off my tracks and need putting back on.
Thanks if you read this, and if you made it to the end. Onwards and upwards from here. And if your a friend sorry for neglecting you recently.
Little Mayfly x