I can remember being at school and every now and again you would do a ‘What kind of learner am I’ test. You’d fill in tick boxes and by the end they would give you a breakdown of what you are. I can always remember hating them! They always seemed like a complete waste of time and that was because I never felt I really fitted in to an exact box. It is so interesting how people learn so differently, from photographic memories and people who can write notes on end. But for me I like to be organised with things and think logically but I know I am hands down a creative person. I doodle, I dance, I love colour, music and crafts. I am stimulated by creative things, images and sounds. Recently I realised that for me when life gets a bit stressed, I stop being creative. When this happens, I almost go into shut down mode. I take no time to be creative and all creative juice production lines comes to an abrupt halt.
I mean I have always thought of my brain like a biro squiggle. The squiggle gets bigger and blacker the more stressed I am. When I am happy, I think of my brain as a multitude of colours, paint splashes shapes. If that’s not creative I’m not sure what is. But with all of this creativeness I have found over the years people have constantly tried to stem it. ‘Chloe stop doodling in your books, this is an English lesson not Art.’, ‘Can you stop singing and dancing for five minutes’, and most recently at work, ‘You can tell its quiet today Chloe’s drawn a nice flower’. I know people probably don’t even think twice when making these comments. Before I went to university I used to sing and dance around the house, I stopped singing and dancing around the house whilst at uni. Yes, I was studying dance which you can argue is a creative outlet but I don’t think I really had the ability to express ‘me’ completely. Part of university for me was a negative experience, I stopped caring for myself and found myself doing the minimal to get by. Now I’m in a much happier place, everything is steady and I have multiple creative outlets. And now I sing and dance around the house again.
I think the point I am trying to make in this post is that I, and others like me strive off the more creative things in life. So maybe the next time you tell someone to stop doodling or give them a tick box learner quiz that maybe some of us have creative boxes?!
I would love to hear your comments on this topic,
Thanks for taking a look,
Chloe May x